Work = Emotionally Eating

Okay, so I am still struggling! I can't believe this - I usually am better than this (at least in the beginning). So, I posted my last blog and was m-o-t-i-v-a-t-e-d. I wrote down everything I ate, I drank tons of water, I quit eating at 7 p.m. and I exercised. The next day, I woke up at 4 a.m. and did cardio for 36 minutes walking 2.22 miles. I got to work an hour early and was feeling great. And then . . . work happened. This seems to happen all the time. I didn't go to lunch (to busy) and just ate junk food. Lucky for me (dripping with sarcasm), I had to attend a retirement reception that afternoon for a co-worker so I ate brownies, rice krispies, and cake for my lunch and dinner. I ended up staying at work until midnight trying to catch up on work. But I left with a ton of stuff still on my desk that I need to deal with. :(

This morning, I didn't work out because I was to tired. I had to pick up some documents before I came into work so guess what I did? I stopped in at the grocery store next door and picked up reese's peanut butter eggs (6 pack) and a king size Symphony bar. I figured, why do good in the morning if I am just going to end up working all day and night and eat poorly. So I started early this morning! Terrible!

I must admit, I have done a bang-up job on my food binge today. And I would probably still be eating if I hadn't read some weight-loss blogs. They put everything into perspective for me. I wish I had more time to read blogs. I get so motivated when I read about other people's successes.

So, I need to get a grip. I have stopped eating for the night (one point for me). I keep thinking if I could catch up at work, I would have some control over my eating. I am realizing that my job really affects me emotionally. And I deal with it by emotionally eating. Hmm, I might need to write a future post about my job and my career history. It might help me draw some connections. But . . . I need to get back to work. Grrrr! However, does anyone have any suggestions to handle stress (specifically at work, if possible) without turning to food?

Basketball Games = Bad Week

So this week didn't go exactly how I planned. Confession . . . I did worse this week than last week. Last week I still exercised six days. This week I only exercised two. Terrible! I also ate dreadfully. You see I now realize I am a basketball junkie. Monday night I went to an NBA basketball game and ate pizza and ice cream. This weekend was a high school state tournament so I watched games all night Thursday and Friday as well as a full day on Saturday. I didn't do a whole lot more except EAT!

I actually walked into the games Saturday morning in pants that were comfortable, but by 9:30 that night, my pants felt so tight on me. I can't believe I can eat to the point where I am so uncomfortable and still eat more. It is wrong!

Needless to say, I know I will have a gain tomorrow. :( I hate to post that my weight has actually gone up again. I have to get a grip. Maybe if I blogged more frequently that would help.

TGIF!!!

This week has been so stressful at work! I am so glad the week is done and hopefully I can catch up this weekend on all the piles of paperwork on my desk. I wasn't prepared to have such a crazy week and because of that I feel like I was in a continual downward spiral.

Every day this week, I got up and exercised super early in the morning (4 a.m. to be exact). I would come back from the gym motivated to eat healthy and stay on track. However, mid-morning I would eat something STUPID and it was completely stress- related. In fact, one morning I came back to my desk from meeting with my boss and immediately reached for a chocolate truffle. I wasn't hungry when I went into the meeting and I wasn't hungry when I got out of the meeting. But I had an impossible list of things to do and so I ate. I am starting to realize when I have a time crunch in front of me, I check out for a minute and eat something (like that is really going to help the situation!). It is frustrating because I recognize what I am doing; I just don't care at that particular moment to control it.

I tell myself everyday, "What is the point of sacrificing sleep to exercise if you are just going to eat crappy food?" And this works . . .right up to the next stressful situation that I need to eat my way through. Any suggestions or tips on what I can do? I am sabotaging myself (which gets me so mad!) and I am not sure how to fix it. All I know is that I am really worried what the scale is going to tell me on Monday.

On the bright side, this work week is over. I will get up tomorrow and workout again. I am rededicating myself to eating healthy regardless of stressful situations. Stress is part of life and I need to deal with it straight on. However, I will do my homework (i.e. come into work this weekend to catch up) and at least not invite stress into my life by not having everything on my desk done before the start of next week. Here's to better eating!